Pumpkin Seeds! Pumpkin Seeds for everyone!!

I am happier than a kid on Christmas, no joke. And it’s over pumpkin seeds. People go crazy during the fall over “pumpkin season”.  I am not one of those people.  It’s not that I don’t like pumpkins or pumpkin flavoring, I’m just not crazy about it.  But I am newly crazy about pumpkin seeds.

You know how people tell you how great nuts (almonds, macadamia nuts, etc.) are for you, but you can’t mindlessly eat them? Well you CAN with pumpkin seeds.  Okay, that’s a lie, but hear me out.  Yes, small serving of nuts and seeds are often have an annoying amount of calories.  They also are full of healthy fats and usually have a decent amount of carbs.  But let’s take a look at almonds.  The suggested serving size is 1/4 of a cup, which, less face it, is like 10 almonds. Don’t get me wrong, I love almonds and almond butter and I think I’m in an open relationship with almond milk, but 10 almonds get me 160 calories, 14g of fat, 6g of carb(3 from fiber) and 6 grams of protein.  That’s fine and everything, but if I want something to snack on mindlessly, it’s not going to be 10 almonds.  Pumpkin seeds, on the other hand, are much smaller than almonds.  For 1/4 of a cup of pumpkin seeds, there are 170 calories, 15g of fat, 3g of carbs(2 from fiber…that’s ONE net carb. ONE!!), and 9g of protein.  Tonight I was in a predicament where I was WAY under my calorie needs for the day, so I had half a cup of pumpkin seeds.  It lasted me an entire episode of New Girl and then some.  Mindless snacking at it’s finest.  I was still under my calorie needs by about 100 calories, but my macros were still pretty spot on.  (I’ve been keeping an eye on my macros simply because I’m counting calories.)  I don’t think I would usually eat  half a cup, but I needed a serious amount of calories and a decent amount of fat in my daily intake.

So, the reason my calorie intake was super low at the end of the day was the fact that I had salad for both lunch and dinner today.  I LOVE salad, but sometimes the calories just aren’t enough.  I want to share the salad I had for dinner tonight, Buffalo Chicken Salad-Salad.  I probably eat this three times a week. 

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I took this picture when I was about half way done eating it…oops.

I call it “Salad-Salad” because it’s like traditional chicken salad(which is generally shredded chicken mixed with mayo, onions, celery, and such) but I put it on top of spinach and mixed greens and toss is all together.  The flavor doesn’t have to be buffalo, but I like spicy, so that’s the route I usually go. 

  1. Start by shredding or cutting up your chicken and put it into a bowl. (Tonight I used a 3.3 oz piece that I had already pre-cooked the other day).
  2. Add chopped onion and celery. (To taste/how crunchy you like it. I use an 1/8 cup of onion and 1/2 cup of celery.)
  3. Dice and add one hard boiled egg to the bowl. (Optional, I recently started doing this.)
  4. Dice and add half an avocado to the bowl. (This is where the creamy/”wet” consistency comes from.)

This is when you can add whatever spices/dressing you want, to taste.  I usually add a few dashes of cayenne pepper, half a tablespoon of Sriracha, and 1-2 tablespoons of Frank’s Hot Sauce.  Then mix/mash it all together with a fork.  I usually just throw a cup of spinach and a cup of mixed greens on top and then mix them together, but you could put the chicken salad on top of the greens as well. 

My measurements yield one serving at 346 calories, 5g carbs, 10g fat, 30g protein, and 4g of fiber.

That’s all this time, take care! =]

 

Sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

Today I want to talk about my favorite meal of the day…also known as the most important meal of the day: breakfast.  Breakfast is so awesome.  I don’t know about anyone else, but I usually wake up starving…like a ravenous beast.  This is especially true when I try to eat a bunch of small meals during the day.  There have been times when I will wake up at 5AM, when it’s still dark out, and I have to get up for the day regardless of what time I went to sleep the night before because all I can think about is food.  I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m an insomniac and this is a serious problem.  I have addressed this in a few ways.  I have stopped eating 5-6 small meals a day. Also, I’ve incorporated casein protein, a slow digesting protein, into my last meal/snack/intake for the night. 

Regardless, I still love breakfast.  First of all, I love eggs.  I buy 2 dozen a week. I could probably leave it at that. But, I love all breakfast foods.  I love cooking breakfast.  I love the smell cooking breakfast creates in my home.  I love eating it in bed.  I love figuring out super quick breakfast ideas when I’m running late.  I love making clean versions of my favorite breakfast foods. Recently I came up with an awesome turkey “sausage” recipe, which I am beyond obsessed with and cannot wait to share with you.  So, I think you get the idea.

That being said, breakfast is almost always my biggest meal of the day.  Sometimes(read: often) it takes up 700 of my 1700 calories for the day.  This has a lot to do with having to make it through 5-7 hours,sometimes longer, at work without being able to eat anything substantial until I get out.  Also, I aim to get about 30 grams of protein per meal.  And because I intuitively eat low carb, (I try not to track my carb intake too closely because I get obsessed with it, but most of my carbs come from vegetables and fruits and it often doesn’t add up to much) so I also need to incorporate a lot of healthy fats into my intake.  And because fat is 9 calories per gram, the calories add up quickly.

I wanted to share what I ate this morning because I eat it usually twice a week.  And as I mentioned before, I cannot get enough of it.  The turkey “sausage” idea came from Iowa Girl Eats’ Maple Sweet Potato Hash Recipe.  While I’m not talking about this specific recipe today, please note that it is amazing and has so many flavors I absolutely adore in it, especially for the fall season.  (Her entire blog is equally amazing. I also wanted to give credit to where the inspiration came from, because there’s no way I could think of DIY turkey sausage without it.)  However, when I came across this recipe, not only did I not have any type of sausage on hand, I wasn’t crazy about the idea of buying it, because regardless of whether or not it’s true, when I think of sausage, I think of it being processed, and I am trying to avoid all things processed.  However, I did have ground turkey in the fridge, so I thought, why not make my own “sausage”?  Usually when I do this, it turns out horribly, but I’ve really been out doing myself in the kitchen lately.  So, here we go.

Measurements will vary based on how much sausage you’re actually using.  I’ve also never truly measured it out until today, and I like to season the turkey rather generously, so the recipe should be altered to taste.  Like with all things breakfast, I’m pretty obsessed with the way breakfast sausage tastes.  So I knew I had to create a blend of spices that would be a little spicy, sweet, and most of all, savory.

The seasoning blend recipe is(for 3-4 ounces of ground turkey):

1/2 tablespoon of McCormick Montreal Chicken Seasoning

1/4 tablespoon of McCormick Montreal Spicy Steak Seasoning

1/2 teaspoon of Cinnamon

Pinch of Oregano

Pinch of Parsley

Dash of Black Pepper

Before I continue with the recipe, it should be noted that I may go a little overboard with the coconut oil.  This is because my pans are old, and need some assistance with the whole non-stick idea and also because coconut oil is amazing for you.

1.5 tablespoons Organic Virgin Coconut Oil

1 ounce Yellow Onions

4 ounces Red Bell Pepper (This can be substituted to any vegetable you want, or eliminated)

3 ounces Ground Turkey

“Sausage” Seasoning Blend

1/2 teaspoon of Organic, Pure Maple Syrup (I use Grade A)

2 Eggs (I use organic, cage free…and the whole eggs, not just the whites)

1/4 of an Avocado

1. Start by heating your skillet over medium heat with 1/2 a tablespoon of coconut oil.  Once the oil is melted, add in the yellow onion and allow them to saute.  If you like, you can also add the bell pepper in at this point if you want them to to be cooked through more, but I like them kind of crunchy. 

2. Mix up “Sausage” Seasoning Blend and fold into the ground turkey. I just use my hands for this. Also, I usually add the blend to the turkey 1/4 of the mixture at a time, to make it evenly distributed. Form the “sausage” into a patty form, you can also crumble it up.  

3. Create a whole in the vegetables already in the skillet or push them to one side.  Add another 1/2 tablespoon of coconut oil to the skillet and add the “sausage” to the skillet.  If you haven’t added additional vegetables to the skillet yet, now is the time to do so.  I find that the “sausage” cooks quicker if you cover the skillet. After about 4 minutes, flip the “sausage” and drizzle the maple syrup on top and allow the turkey to cook through.  When finished, slide the contents of the skillet onto a plate. 

4. Add 1/2 tablespoon of coconut oil and cook 2 eggs to your liking. If you poach the eggs, you can eliminate the coconut oil in this step. Dice a 1/4 of an avocado and put it on top of the “sausage” and vegetables.  Transfer the eggs from the pan to over the “sausage” and vegetables. 

5. Devour.

Calories: 622 Carbs:23g  Fat:40g  Protein:31g

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This picture is from a couple days ago when I made this recipe with spinach instead of peppers.  Also, I don’t know why the meat looks pink-ish because it was most definitely cooked through.  I guess that’s what I get for taking pictures with my phone…

Anyways, until next time!

 

Oh, hey strangers.

Okay, so maybe I’m the stranger… because it’s been two months.  There were a few times where I started to write a new post, but it just didn’t feel right.  I would love to say that in the past two months I’ve transformed into a new being, but that is not the case.  I’m in the same spot I was two months ago, except I really have it together this time.  I mean it.

In the past, I have always committed to an eating style and then research the shit out of it…after buying all my groceries for the week(my logic is alarmingly concerning at times). Atkins, South Beach, Keto, Paleo, the list goes on.  And I would always come across something that contradicted the way I was eating/working out or find someone who had some awesome before and after pictures that advocated a plan other than the one I was following.  I’m pretty sure I was the picture perfect definition of a yo-yo dieter, but I was completely in denial about it.

This time, I know it’s different, and that’s why I’m back.  I have been prepping my meals for the past two weeks.  I have actually been following through on attempting to make clean eating recipes that I’ve come across on the Internet and eating AMAZING food.  While I possibly could eat grilled chicken and broccoli everyday, I love knowing that I don’t have to…and that possibilities are endless in the kitchen.  But here’s how I know I’ve changed my mindset: not once, but twice, this week I was running errands and thought about buying something pre-made. I’m extremely embarrassed and ashamed that one of those items was going to be frozen pizza…I work at a pizzeria, if I’m going to “cheat”, I better at least make worth it.  I want to be honest with everyone, the frozen pizza was actually in my cart for about 5 minutes.
And somehow, I talked myself out of it.  At first, I reasoned I could make my own cauliflower crust pizza.  I put the pizza back in the freezer section (how I ended up there to begin with is beyond me, I wasn’t even at the store for groceries).  I proceeded to put shredded mozzarella cheese and pepperoni in my cart and after about 5 minutes, I thought about how processed they were, so I put those back on the shelves of Target and raced my way back home to the land of “clean”, mostly organic food, measuring cups, and a food scale, where I wrestled a spaghetti squash into two and happily ate a clean meal.  I was quite proud of myself then, so you can only imagine my elation when I did it again today, except the thought simply crossed my mind, I didn’t actually attempt to bring frozen pizza home.

For anyone who’s curious, I’m basically following a clean eating guide as described in “The Science of Skinny,” by Dee McCaffrey, who’s an organic chemist and nutritionist.  It talks a lot about how food breaks down in our bodies and I recommend everyone reads it.  I got my copy through Amazon for not much at all.  I’m also working on getting a good weight lifting/cardio routine going, but I’m taking it one day at a time.

That’s all for tonight…Can’t wait to check in with you soon!

I’m afraid I can’t explain myself, sir. Because I am not myself, you see?

I have completed 5 days of Insanity and I am done.  Done.

During day one, I read a lot on how it is essential to follow the Insanity Meal Plan.  So, I read the entire meal plan and while I was not thrilled about the the 150g+ of carbs I would be consuming, I decided I had to give it a go.  And I think I made a solid effort.

I like the Insanity workouts.  They’re challenging, but do able.  I feel accomplished when I finish them.  This meal plan though…I don’t even know where to start.  It is a good meal plan, don’t get me wrong.  It’s balanced and healthy.  But I’m not used to eating that many carbs, even when I’m not watching my carbs.  Just about every meal requires you to eat a portion of whole grains(slice of bread, portion of rice, cereal, pasta).  And I really just can’t swing that. I tried.  I like my carbs to come from leafy, green vegetables and fruits. 

The plan recommends that your eating is 40-40-20: 40% carbs, 40% protein, 20% fats.  I modified my daily intake to be 35-45-20, knowing that the carbs would be overwhelming.  That allows for 166g of carbs, 214g of protein, and 42g of fat for a 1900-calorie diet.  In five days, I’ve always been slightly under my intake of carbs, WAY under my intake of protein (by 70 to 100 grams!), and over for my intake of fat.  Granted, most of the fat is healthy fats (nut butters, avocado…)it still makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong.  And I find it very unsettling that I’m not able to reach the protein intake.  So, I’m breaking up with Insanity.  I may incorporate a workout here and there, but me and this meal plan are done.

I do like some of the recipes and I will probably use some of them, especially the shakes and omelets, on a regular basis.  But I’m going back to low carb and the gym.  Ideally, I’m aiming for 1,750 calories and 15% carbs(66g), 40% protein(176g), and 45% fat (88g).

Oh, the perils of weight loss. FML.

Gym at 8am before work. See ya, kids.

Successful day by 10AM…who knew it was possible for me to be awake before then?

Good Morning!

I got up when my alarm went off the first time at 8:30AM.  Applause is encouraged but not necessary. :)  I’m that person who needs to set their alarm 30 minutes to an hour before I actually have to get out of bed, so this is a miracle.  I probably fell asleep around 3:30AM and I was nervous about being able to pull myself out of bed. But the alarm went off, I just about rolled to my kitchen and pulled out some iced green tea that I made last night and ate some plain yogurt with berries, which I also put together last night.  Along with lunch and snacks for today.  Food prep is key, or so I’ve been told.  Also, green tea, hot or cold, sometimes with lemon, sometimes plain, is so wonderful in the morning.  It always gives me the start I need.  If I can just remember to tell myself that there’s some waiting for me when I first wake up in the morning, I’ll be golden.

I successfully completed my workout for the day: a Tara Stiles Morning Yoga routine, 40 push-ups, 40 squats, and Insanity: Plyometric Cardio Circuit(PCC). I’ve have brief stints with Insanity before, never anything consecutive, just replacing other workouts here and and there, and I’m pretty sure PCC has always been my favorite.  It’s hard, yes.  But when you really break Insanity down it’s absolutely do-able.  To be honest, you’re only working out “hard” for 20 minutes.  I say “hard”, because it’s not like the warm-up is a joke, I’m always sweating by the second circuit of it.  Not to mention, there are people in the video who cannot keep up the entire time!  Level 1 drills are the best and worst things to ever come into my life.  And they make Ski Abs and Up and Down Abs(or whatever they’re called) nearly impossible.  I know it can seem very intimidating, but it’s so important to realize that you are not the people in the video.  You are you, and it’s okay to go at your own pace.  I don’t think that can be stressed enough.

Now, I’m happily eating breakfast number two.  2 scrambled eggs with some tomato diced up mixed in.  I’m off to work a double, which I’m not thrilled about, but I’ve been off for three days and it’s time to get back into the swing of things.

 

The third day of detox went well.  I have been feeling great and getting up earlier has been getting easier.  I’ve been working a lot which is why I’ve been M.I.A.

I will be attempting a low carb, clean eating diet for the next month.  The clean eating part is kind of a given.  Low carb is something I’ve done before, felt great while doing, but fell off the wagon somewhere along the way.  I’ll be counting calories and carbs.  I’m not looking forward to that, but I think it’s necessary. I’m aiming for 1,500-1800 calories a day and 75g of carbs.  I’ll be following this 80/20.  Meaning 80% of the time I’ll be right on, while 20% of the time I’ll allow some leniency.  This allows for 2 cheat meals a week.  Alcohol consumption will be kept to a minimum.  I do not want to say I’m forbidding it, because that will only make me want it.

I’m going to attempt Insanity for 30 days. I intend on waking up at 9 every morning and getting it over with. If I don’t wake up and get it done, there’s no excuse for me not to do it later in the day because it’s done at home.  Also, I was looking at pictures from my cross-country/track days, and while I was in shape, I wasn’t thin and definitely had some weight that I could have lost.  Regardless, my arms looked in shape.  They were not flabby. Currently one of the biggest qualms about my body is my arms.  It’s summer time and I insist on wearing long sleeves, a cardigan, or a sweater so that no one has to see my arms.  So upon waking up every morning, I will be doing push-ups every morning.  Starting with 40 and adding more reps as time goes on.  I think I will also add squats into that routine.  And a light stretch/yoga routine.  Creating habits is crucial.

Making grilled chicken and an array of grilled summer vegetables for dinner with a friend tonight.  Pictures will probably follow.

Have a great night, everyone! :)

 

Day Two Detox

I was able to choke down the rest of the lunch smoothie and the rest of the day went on fine(…except I didn’t work out. Blah.).  I substituted the snack smoothie for just eating half of an apple and a cucumber, which are some of the components of the lunch smoothie.  After looking into the cleanse, something I definitely should have prior to jumping into it, I found that many people have done the same.  As well as modify the awful lunch smoothie.

So far, Day Two has been fine. I took the celery out of the lunch smoothie and ate it as is.  That made the smoothie so much better…and not so chewy.  Instead of the snack smoothie I had a banana with almond butter after my work out.  I’m holding off on the dinner smoothie so I don’t get too hungry later.

I finally worked out and it went surprisingly well for not seriously working out in a few weeks.

Cardio: 45 minutes on the CrossTrainer with intervals.

  • 5 minute warm-up: crossramp @ 4/resistance @ 2
  • Alternating 4 minutes: crossramp @ 10/resistance @ 4 and 1 minute: crossramp @ 2/resistance @ 1.
  • 6 minute cool down: crossramp @ 4/resistance @ 2

3.6 miles, 441 Calories. 

Strength:

  • 50 push-ups
  • Preacher curl, 3 sets/10 reps each – 40lbs
  • Incline chest, 3×10 – 45lbs
  • Seated dip, 3×10 – 65lbs
  • Assisted chin ups – 10

Then I came home from the gym and did this video.

Just staying in for the night, hopefully getting to sleep early.

Do not reward yourself with food; you are not a dog.

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First health related post!I start a 3 day detox today. 3 days of fruit and veggie smoothies, green tea, and lots of water.  I love detoxes.  They really make me feel rejuvenated and ready to go.  I’m usually pretty good about the healthy eating part of life, but I’ve been really slacking lately.  Not to mention the binge drinking, which leads to snacking on crappy food during the wee hours of the morning.  Last night it was snacking on half a bag of Smartfood that I didn’t even know I had, ugh.

It also doesn’t help the sleeping situation.  I don’t often get hungover, which is both a gift and curse.  (A gift because I know what it’s like to be hungover and it would be awful to wake up feeling that way on a weekly basis.  A curse because there are no consequences for my actions.)  But I do tend to sleep in very late and/or nap often the day after a drinking stint.  And this leads to getting absolutely nothing done.  Not drinking related, but I have been trying to wake up at a decent hour every day, regardless of what time I fell asleep in hopes that my body will eventually be so tired by the end of the day that I will fall asleep at, oh I don’t know, maybe 11PM.  That would be nice.  Last night(I guess I should technically say this morning) I fell asleep around 4:30AM.  I set my alarm for 11.  I woke up, wide awake, at 8, which often happens after a night of drinking.  Then became painfully tired around 10:30 and “slept” until 1.  I say “slept” because after 11, I was hitting the snooze on my alarm every 9 minutes.  It’s truly never ending.

So anyways, the detox is 3 days.  There will be no alcohol for at least 7 days.  It could and probably will go longer, but I’ve also played around with the idea of allowing a certain number of drinks a week.  A friend of mine who is seeing a nutritionist is allowed six drinks a week.  It’s not that I can’t go without drinking, it’s really not a problem.  I also have no problem going to the bar and getting a water.  And I don’t often go out and get completely annihilated anymore.  It definitely happens on occasion, but usually I just like to have a Guinness or two after a busy night at work.

I’ve done detoxes before.  Both with and without smoothies.  Two years ago, I did a 7 day detox with just raw fruits and vegetables and massive amounts of water.  7 days is a long time. And at midnight at the end of Day 7 I was eating french fries with cheese melted on them.  As you can imagine, that’s NOT the way to end a detox.  Now I choose to do shorter, usually 3-4 days, detoxes 2-3 times a year.  Smoothies are nice because they’re easy when you’re on the go.  The smoothies I’m making this time around are massive.  Lots of ingredients.  I actually think I’m supposed to be juicing all the ingredients, but I don’t have a juicer and I’m not spending the money on one at the moment.  Also, some of the ingredients cannot be juiced, so that confuses me. (For anyone who’s curious, it’s based off Dr. Oz’s 3-Day Detox Cleanse.)

I’m not doing the detox in an attempt to shed pounds quickly or anything.  It’s just a way for me to get in the right state of mind to truly focus on eating clean on a daily basis.  I’m currently reading The Science of Skinny by Dee McCaffrey.  We all know processed foods are not good for you, but it’s nice to actually learn about what really goes on in a lot of the food we purchase. 

However, for the sake of tracking my progress, I weighed myself today and I’m 168lbs at 5’5.  I don’t have a goal weight.  I’d just like to not freak out every time I’m trying get dressed.

I’m drinking the lunch smoothie now and it turns out that blended celery has a very weird texture and it’s requiring a lot of focus for me to get this down.  So on that note, I’ll be taking off to finish this and get ready for work.  Hopefully I’ll get out in time to head to the gym, otherwise I’ll have to work out in my air conditioner-less home…for those of you who don’t know, the East Coast is experiencing a heat wave and it’s 91 degrees and when I get home later it will still probably be in the 80s.

There are three things I hate in life: Lists, odd numbers, and irony.

The first time I heard that, it took me a few minutes to get it.  And now I think it’s the best thing to ever hit my ear drums.  If you don’t get it, read it a couple more times, say it aloud, tell someone else…you’ll get it.  And if you don’t, I don’t know what to say because I’m not explaining it.

People always say that I hate everyone/everything.  This is not true, obviously.  There are plenty of people I love and even more things I like.  In fact, I am a very compassionate, caring person.  To be honest, there isn’t a whole lot of things that I actually hate.  I think the only thing I physically hate is mushrooms.  I hate the way they taste, the way they smell, the way they feel to touch, both in my hands and in my mouth.  You get the point. (I have to move on because I could write a whole post on how much I hate mushrooms, but that is not the point of today’s post.)  Otherwise, I hate actions.  For example, I hate when people don’t say what they mean. 

I think people confuse hate with disregard.  Just because I don’t care about something or someone doesn’t mean I hate it.  I’ve met multiple people who, after a few months of knowing me, tell me that they thought I previously hated them.  You can’t hate someone you don’t know.  Well, I guess you can, but that’s not something I practice.  It’s not that I hated these people, they just never gave me a reason to give them the time of day.  It’s cool if you’re casually dating one of my friends, but until you do something spectacular or really awful, I probably haven’t formed an opinion about you, nor do I care about what you think of me. 

This could be harsh, but I say it all the time, I have plenty of friends, I’m not looking for more.  As much as I’m a people pleaser, this quality of mine only exists if you’re someone I respect.  Other than that, I could care less about what you think of me or what I’m wearing, eating, doing, who I’m hanging out with, etc.  Everyone has a right to form their own opinion, and I have a right to not care at all about whatever that opinion is.

Life is too short to care about what other people think, it really is.  Especially when these opinions come from people you hardly know.  This is something that reminds me that a small part of me is growing up: recognizing the simplicity of life and living for myself and the people I care about.

Begin at the beginning and go on until you come to the end; then stop.

I suppose this is the awkward part: Me, posting my blabberings for the world to read when in reality, the possibilities that no one will ever read this or I’ll delete this within the next week are very high.  I’ve come to terms with the fact that, in general, my life is awkward.  I’ve come to terms with it and so should anyone reading this.  So, let’s move on with it…

It will probably become very apparent that I love Alice in Wonderland (the title of this post is a quote from it), if that makes me crazy, so be it.  I think we’re all a little crazy anyways.  I actually love a lot of children’s movies, namely Disney movies.  As mentioned else where, I have what I (along with many others) like to call Peter Pan syndrome.  I promise, I’m pretty mature for my age, but deep down I’m just a kid and I want to stay that way.

I’m an insomniac who refuses to use sleeping pills because I do not want to become dependent on them.  This leads to long days and even longer nights…and I’m sure some bizarre posts in the future.  No need for lectures, I’ve talked to my doctor and I’ve even gone to a therapist, this shit isn’t going away.  My friends tell me I can’t go my entire life not sleeping like this, but I think I’m doing okay.

I’m constantly in a state of wanting to become healthier.  That was the original inspiration behind this blog.  If I document it, I will become accountable for my actions…or so I hope.  However, one night I was standing at my kitchen counter, eating dinner, staring at where a dining room table should be and began feeling very stuck.  Like I had done too much, too soon.  Homeowner and college grad within 4 months of each other and I’m still bartending and serving the human race, which happens to be alarmingly annoying on most days, and awake for 20 hours of the day with absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life and my health insurance running out in 17 days…

So this blog will stay true to it’s intent, me becoming healthier, but also, about my life’s adventure post-college, leaving the restaurant industry and finding a “real” job, figuring out how to sleep through the night, and possibly, hopefully finding a table to sit at while I eat.